A Staff Member Admits to Committing a Crime

The image above is of a KR that was brought as evidence against me during a Comme Ev.  I was being accused of the High Crime of “Sexual or sexually perverted conduct contrary to the well-being or good state of mind of a Scientologist in good standing or under the charge of Scientology, such as a student or preclear.”  It is a perfect example of the insane disconnect that some members of the Church seem to have with what is considered right or even legal amongst their fellow members of the society. 

The following is the text of the KR (with the names of myself and my girlfriend removed.)

CC: [Joe Blow], PC Folder, Ethics folder

7 JAN 2012


[Joe Blow,] HGC Auditor Pasadena Org

[Yours truly – code name “Joe Blow”] is the 2D of one of our staff members, [my girlfriend – code name “Jane Doe”],TTC Atl Org. They met at Flag while both were training. [Jane’s] cell phone was left at the org and was turned into reception this afternoon while I was holding reception. A text came in on her phone from HAS Pasadena Org that interested me so I looked at the cell and read it. I continued reading the texts and found a picture text from [Joe] of an erect penis with an accompanying text stating merry Christmas. I assume this was a picture of [Joe.]  On [Jane’s] phone were other pictures of this sexually degrading sort sent to [Joe] of and from [Jane.]

I felt this information would be needed by the C/S and ethics as this is a 2D aberration that should get handled not to mention a possible out-security point.

These activities are not okay especially [for] two Flag trained Class V orgs one of which is Ideal and the other going ideal.

This is True,

Wendy Hiler, HES ATL

All discussion aside of the embarrassing nature of this report, and any ethical considerations regarding whether or not this should actually be considered a “High Crime” as I was being accused, the most disgusting part of it is the admission by this person that she criminally invaded the privacy of myself and her fellow staff member. 

According to the common law of “invasion of privacy”, and specifically Georgia Statute § 16-9-93(c), a person is guilty of a felony if they use someone else’s electronic device with the intent of gaining unauthorized access to personal information. Those who commit this crime can be sued in any civil court, and can face fairly harsh consequences – especially in the state of Georgia. In terms of civil penalties, a person injured by this crime can sue for any damages sustained and for the costs of bringing the lawsuit. In terms of criminal penalties, the accused may face a fine of up to $50,000, imprisonment of up to 15 years, or both.

Is this what Scientology has been reduced to – spying on their members by criminally invading their privacy?  It seems that is the case, especially if you consider some of the even more invasive activities that the Church allegedly engages in.  [See Busted! Scientology Spies in South Texas]

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What is Wrong With Scientology?

Marty Rathbun’s forthcoming book What Is Wrong With Scientology? is likely to be rather controversial to both corporate as well as independent Scientologists alike.  There are some subjects (“sacred cows” as Marty puts it) that he alludes to in his introduction that will most likely challenge the reader’s willingness to confront what really is wrong with Scientology; especially, if LRH or the technology itself are challenged. 

Part of the controversy is inherent in his choice of words for the title.  Any time you use the word “wrong” in a discussion, you are likely to get heated responses. The reason has a lot to do with the definitions of this word, and the tendency to reactively identify.

wrong: adjective
1. not in accordance with what is morally right or good: a wrong deed.
2. deviating from truth or fact; erroneous: a wrong answer.
3. not correct in action, judgment, opinion, method, etc., as a person; in error: You are wrong to blame him.
4. not proper or usual; not in accordance with requirements or recommended practice: the wrong way to hold a golf club.
5. out of order; awry; amiss: Something is wrong with the machine. [Dictionary.com]

It is a mistake to A=A=A the many distinctly different concepts of this word. I think that doing so is the reason it is a button for most. The first three definitions tend to be invalidative, which illicit the expected response from a reactive being.  The fourth is very applicable to the misapplication of a technology. However, the last, which is most likely the concept that Marty is communicating with the title of his book, is something that definitely needs to be confronted if one is to fix something – in this case, Scientology (the application AND the organization.)

I for one think that Marty chose a perfect title.  I can’t wait to see if he actually answers the question that he poses. Even though there are undeniable truths in the philosophy of Scientology, and the technology when standardly applied can perform nothing short of miracles, there has always been that lingering doubt in my mind – the thought that there is something very wrong at the core that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. It’s a question that I think every sane individual secretly begins to ponder once he gets involved with Scientology.

It certainly indicates to me!  It was this question (not unlike “What is the Matrix?”) that led me on my path of discovery, and ultimately brought me out of my trance.  It was this question that unerringly led me to the truth.  Hopefully, Marty can build on this, and help others as well on their own personal journeys to freedom.

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Confession or Interrogation

I recently caused quite a stir in my org when I refused to subject myself to an HCO confessional. Although I was asking to leave staff, I contended that I was not undergoing any justice action, and therefore doing an HCO confessional was inappropriate. [Ref: HCOB – CONFESSIONAL PROCEDURE] In fact, the HCO PL – LEAVING AND LEAVES, which is the policy that dictates that a staff requesting to leave should get a confessional, does not specifically state that it should be an HCO confessional. 

The specific point that makes a difference between a regular confessional and an HCO confessional is whether or not the information disclosed is reported to HCO and can be acted on by the Ethics Officer. Normally, divulging the secrets of a confessional would be against point number 22 of the Auditor’s Code.  It would also be a violation of the common law called “confessional privilege” and the basic human right against “self-incrimination.” In actuality, making a person answer questions in this nature would be more appropriately called an “interrogation” not a confession. [See “HCO Security Checks”]

I therefore told the C/S and my Auditor (who is a Class VI on OT VII) that I would be happy to do a regular confessional that is governed by the Auditor’s Code, that I would be happy to answer any questions and divulge whatever “secrets” I might have as long as they were protected by the normal privilege afforded such confessions.  Indeed, I have nothing to hide.

I didn’t think that that was an unreasonable request. Of course, they had no reality at all on why I was refusing.  They kept trying to explain to my how this is just the way that things are done, how it is all about me “coming clean” and then working with the Ethics Officer to “handle” whatever comes up.  Their whole approach was that this was just something that I would have to get through if I wanted to continue as a staff member or even as a Scientologist.

Of course, I continued to refuse as was my right.  I assumed that if they ultimately had my best interests in mind, they would allow me as the preclear to get what I wanted.  However, what I was told instead was that if I refused the HCO confessional that I would be comm ev’ed and most likely get declared.

I was incredulous!  I know this is nothing compared to the “group confessionals” that others have been subjected to; however, I was still struck with how crazy things have become in the Church today. It’s sad to see how the help of true Scientology has been degraded into such a betrayal of trust.

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David Miscavige Must Go

There are many websites such as markrathbun.wordpress.com and www.scientology-cult.com that are devoted to documenting the situation of the Church of Scientology. I suggest anyone interested in evaluating this scene take the time to actually look at what data these sites have to offer and consider for themselves the validity of the information.

Some data cannot be refuted. For instance, it is a fact that the membership of the Church has decreased over the past couple of decades, NOT increased as we would be led to believe by the Int PR events. And most important of all is the decline and currently abysmal amount of TRAINING and AUDITING that is occurring in the Church today. 

The intent of “My Eval” is to hopefully provide a bright idea for handling all of the above.  You can read the full eval if you like. But, the primary handling I propose is to start (or at least continue in a concerted effort) spreading the message “David Miscavige must go.”

This message undercuts any debate about religious beliefs or the Founder and focuses on the correct target. And I believe that if carried on long enough and effectively enough, it WILL either compel Mr. Miscavige to step down — or embolden current executives enough to remove him.

But even more importantly, it has the potential to reach both staff and public who know something is wrong but don’t know what to do about it. Plus, this handling is something that anyone can actually do, and really does open the door to a solution.

What do you think, will it work?

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LRH Said… (Why We Quote Scripture)

“Nothing in Dianetics and Scientology is true for you unless you have observed it and it is true according to your observation.” –LRH [From “Personal Integrity”]

I find it interesting that most Scientologists seem to feel compelled to quote LRH, just as I have above, whenever they want to make a point. It reminds me of how Christians treat the Word of God, or how Muslims often say “it is written.”  It’s a way to add credence to one’s statement by drawing on the power of great men or divinity.  It’s also a way to gain agreement to one’s ideas by utilizing a previously accepted reality. But, I think that it can be taken too far – especially when quotes get taken out of context and start to get interpreted too literally.  This is something that is especially relevant in Scientology.

Judgment or the ability to evaluate data for one’s self and come up with correct estimations is potentially the greatest ability that someone can develop.  I would argue that this is the most important ingredient to truly understanding Scientology and being able to apply it.  For me, it was the greatest lesson that I learned from the Study Tapes, and it is the secret to why I’m such a fast student.

There are at least a dozen LRH quotes other than the above that I could come up with that would support this viewpoint.  But, that is not the point.  I think that it is dangerous when a philosophy starts to be taken too literally.  When that happens, it evolves into a totalitarian regime that dictates robotic followership instead of a benign movement that promotes freedom.  This is the situation that I believe we are confronted with in the Church today.

A big part of this can probably be traced back to the enforcement of the “Verbal Tech Penalties” policy.  This policy makes it a crime to interpret LRH for another person. In my opinion, its intention is to force people to study things for themselves and come to their own conclusions instead of relying on the opinions of others.  It also standardizes the technology by providing an unalterable point of agreement.

However, this can be taken too far.  Instead of encouraging personal judgment, it can be used to enforce dogmatism. Any bright ideas or opinions which aren’t covered in writing by LRH are squashed. And any disagreement is handled by telling a person to “go back and find your misunderstood word,” which is repeated as often as necessary until the disagreement has been suppressed. 

“If it isn’t written it isn’t true” is the catch-phrase that is supposed to be used by Scientologists to defeat verbal tech and encourage the application of Standard Tech.  However, the corollary “if it’s written, it’s true” is often used instead to enforce any random LRH quote that is taken out of context in order to support whatever whimsical idea the person decides is important at the time.  This creates confusion and causes an impediment to judgment.  It makes every quote equal every other quote and makes it impossible for people to be able to sort out senior data and make sense of the vast body of knowledge that comprises Scientology.

I suggest that this is not Scientology as I know it.  I can’t imagine LRH ever discouraging critical thought or the discussion of Scientology as long as the purpose was to create understanding.  Indeed, you can listen to numerous “question and answer” sessions on the Briefing Course where LRH did just that. 

Some of the questions that this raises for me are: Should we you use Scientology scripture at all when discussing our ideas, or should we just state our opinions and label them as such? Should we take LRH literally word-for-word, or should we instead seek to form our own opinions and try to understand him in the full context of everything he ever said or wrote? How confident can we even be that what we think is LRH is actually authentic?

In closing, I offer the following quote:

Even if you are in a minority of one, the truth is still the truth.–Mahatma Gandhi

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The Apotheosis of LRH

apotheosis: “The fact or action of becoming or making into a god; deification.” [Wiktionary]

When I first read The Hymn of Asia, I found it quite aesthetic.  But you can’t possibly expect me to believe that LRH wanted us to take it literally!  If so, I expect that he would have come right out and told us so before he dropped his body.  So, why then?

There is no question that LRH was an extraordinary man.  And his contributions to mankind are without equal.  However, when I look at the extent of the glorification that is currently happening within the Church, I am perplexed.  Is this what Ron would have wanted?

Throughout history, monarchs and religious leaders were almost always held in enormous reverence. However, the organizations they founded usually developed into “personality cults” or totalitarian regimes such as the Nazis or the Roman Empire. In these cases, a single leader became associated with a revolutionary transformation, and came to be treated as a God without whom the transformation to a better future couldn’t occur. This has generally been the justification for such deification.

This isn’t necessarily a bad thing for Scientology. Indeed, the religion of Scientology could never be disassociated with LRH, nor should it be.  But to put so much attention on the man instead of the product of his technology is fundamentally contrary to everything that he stood for! 

For instance, why do a majority of the Div 6 displays focus on the history of LRH and public relations activities in his name instead of services that will actually help people?  And why are millions of dollars being spent on huge “Ideal Orgs” that act like shrines to LRH, instead of making Auditors and Clears.  How is this going to achieve the aims of Scientology? 

If at least equal energy were being spent on delivering actual Scientology, then it could possibly be excused. But there isn’t.  If there were an effective program being run to turn around the dismal delivery statistics in orgs, then maybe it would make sense. However, instead, all staff members are currently being given sales quotas for the new Ron encyclopedia set.

Is this what staff members have become – encyclopedia salesmen? I could think of a hundred outpoints in this situation; however, the following quote certainly comes to mind:

“This morning I received a cable from an org. An urgent cable. Did it say, ‘How do you assess for a Prehav level’ or something sensible? No, it didn’t. It said, ‘Send us some biographical data for a newspaper article.’ I spit. That org is doing the lousiest job possible in Technical and is all worked up to get publicity. What’s this? Do they think a society in this shape will approve Scientology into power? Hell no! And to hell with this society. We’re making a new one. So let’s skip the approval button from a lot of wogs and settle down to work to make new people and better people. Then maybe you’ll have a society.”


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Why I Stayed

I look back now and wonder why I have stayed in the Church of Scientology as long as I have. And then I look to all those who are still “in”, and to my “friends” who I will undoubtedly lose by leaving, and I wonder what it will take for them to see the light.  Someday, there may be a study that will attempt to answer these questions.  However, the following are some of the reasons why I at least have had an extremely hard time leaving no matter how horrible the conditions became.

1)  There’s no alternative: I was led to believe that to forsake the Church is tantamount to eternal damnation, because there is nowhere else that I can benefit from “standard” Scientology. Everything else is “squirrel” and suppressive. However, the truth is that LRH made sure that the technology of Scientology (other than the uppermost levels) is entirely available to everyone. For this reason, it’s impossible to ever be cut off from the benefits of Scientology as long as I am willing to read and apply what LRH has written. Therefore, I do not need to be so deathly afraid that I would be doomed if the Church decided to bar me from the Bridge. Because, even without the Church I would still have LRH.

2)  Personal integrity: I feel an obligation to not withdraw my allegiance from a group that I have sworn to support. To walk away from the Church feels like a betrayal to all those who have relied on me, and supported me over the years. I value their friendship and don’t want to upset them. Plus, I am heavily invested (both financially or emotionally) and to walk away requires admitting that I was wrong.  However, once I saw the truth of the situation I could no longer stand aside.  It was a matter of integrity that I do something about it.  And when given no other recourse to effect change, the only solution left was to withdraw my allegiance.

3)  Disconnection: Even though the Church officially claims that this policy is not enforced, I can assure you that it is. [See “Disconnection as a Condition”] In order to leave, I would have to walk away from not only my girlfriend, but all my close friends and associates who are members of the Church. Fortunately, I do not have family or children of my own who are Scientologists; otherwise, I’d have to leave them too.  Still, I would basically have to start my life over, and the level of trauma associated with that would be significant.

The truth however is that it would hurt them more than it would me. And there’s nothing that says that I have to disconnect.  I can continue to communicate and attempt to bring them around.  And if they continue to shun me and call me insane, well either they are cowards, in which case I wouldn’t want them as friends anyways, or they were never my friends to begin with.  

4)  The “bubble”: The Scientology world is for the most part created inside a “bubble” of reality. Great care is taken to isolate every Scientologist from the “external influences” of critics and ex-Scientologists. And a great deal of effort is spent on creating internal PR to keep everyone informed of only what is deemed necessary, and to hide that which is less savory. I’m fortunate because my immersion has been limited compared to those who have been born into Scientology, or who have been drafted into the Sea Org, and have very little education or experience outside of the Church.  

Even though I have always felt like something was fundamentally wrong with the Church, I still forwarded all the PR lines like a good little drone, and never really pulled the strings necessary in order to find the truth.  I was willing to look the other way and give the powers-that-be the benefit of doubt as long as I was allowed to continue to go on course and get auditing.  It took a great deal of independent research, and then my own bubble getting popped with injustice, before I eventually opened my eyes.

5) It’s all my fault: It has been hammered into me that whatever situation I find myself in — I’m the one who “pulled it in.”  Whether it was trouble with my studies, lack of results in auditing, or failures in my personal life, it was always what I did. The Church could never wrong. Then, if I leave or “blow off,” it only proves my guilt. And if I speak up or complain, then I’m just “nattering” and it’s even further proof of my overts and withholds.

This mindset is then cemented with the suppressive use of Confessionals in order make my crimes public and prove to me how wrong I am. [See “HCO Security Checks”] And if I but think a critical thought about the Church or its management, then I am considered “disaffected” and I will subjected to even more Sec Checking that will not conclude until I repent and prove my loyalty by making exorbitant “amends.” 

The truth is I am responsible. I am responsible for getting involved with such a suppressive group.  And I am responsible for doing something about it in order to ensure that the technology of Scientology remains in the hands of only those who truly intend to use it for the benefit of mankind.

6)  Scientology is the “greatest good”: The apparency is that the Church represents Scientology which is the “greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics.” In other words, as long as Scientology is expanding and the Church is actively clearing the planet, even though there may be some outpoints, they are small in comparison to all the good that is being done. Therefore, the summary conclusion is that leaving for whatever reason could never be ethical. In fact, leaving is considered a “suppressive act.”

However, the problem with this reasoning is that it assumes absolutes. First, it assumes that the Church and Scientology are co-terminal, which is not true.  Scientology is the applied religious philosophy originated by LRH.  I still whole-heartedly support this. The Church on the other hand is a religious organization incorporated for the purpose of forwarding the aims of Scientology. To assume that an organization which is made up of aberrated individuals could never be corrupted to the point where it was no longer forwarding those aims is extremely naive. 

The truth is that it’s all a matter of viewpoint. Leaving may be considered evil from the viewpoint of the Church; however, if the Church itself were evil, then wouldn’t that be the greatest good?

7)  Suppression: Finally, I believe the vast majority of Scientologists are PTS to the Church. It’s very similar to the “middle class” situation described by LRH. Because, most of the people I know in Scientology would admit that there is something wrong, yet they still frown on me actually trying to do something about it. In fact, those who have fought me the most in trying to get Scientology applied have almost always been those within the Church rather than anyone on the outside. “Stop being such a “flat ball bearing” and “Let someone more qualified handle it” were a couple of the most common sentiments. This was then followed by the advice that I should clear up my own misunderstoods, because if I disagreed with the powers-that-be, then I must be the one who is wrong.

I realized however that it is not me they are actually worried about. They are worried about what would happen to them if I were right.  I am threatening their comfortable little “bubble” (see above.) They fight me because they are AFRAID. They fight me because they are afraid of what they would lose—their friends, their family and their jobs—if they were to stand up like me.  Therefore, I must be the one who is wrong.

“The middle class wants the world of a job and order and even hypocrisy and cops because they are AFRAID. They hold their narrow views because any other views may disturb their twenty-year house mortgage, the store, the job.” …

“Many of them are caught up in the mystery of why they are snarled at and have no conception of the middle class as a formidable and jealous force that goes psychotic when it feels anyone may get away from the treadmill and threaten their uneasy and doomed lives.”

-LRH [HCOB 16 April 1982]

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